Tuesday, September 25, 2007

lunar maximus

I'm extraordinarily giggly tonight. It may have something to do with me finally figuring out how to get the exact data i need from the database...I only had to create two more tables to do such a thing...but not the procedures should be filling in all the gaps on the master tables for running daily reports. Oh the feats of an untrained data-analysis

Abbey and I celebrated with a trip to the Zebra-Stripped Whale; she got pumpkin/maple nut and I had Deep Dish Apple Pie, it was very yummy. We strolled around town in our usual fashion and lamented more about a recent out break of blank plague pedastals through out the borough...I think it would be really fun to go around and place my own random little known historical facts or point of interest in each one...vandalism's OK, if it's intended to make people smile, right?

It's funny, I'm preparing a lesson for tomorrow night's Cornerstone, dealing with what's right and what's wrong...I think it's something that no matter what age you are or where you are in your life you will constantly have to be discerning and redefining. The text is from Galations and I've always found it very convicting, living by the Spirit and discerning by action's by that standard...The whole unselfish thing so huge...I'm not always sure of how to live for others before myself...God's going to teach me...or lead by the Spirit ;-)

Well I should be off to bed, it's late and I need to get into the office early in Steph terms.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

lazy sunday

this has been the third sunday in row where i've found myself to be incredibly exhausted...i never made it the morning service or even out of my pajamas for that matter.

i've been trying to make my sundays more a day of rest, but i'm getting a little worried about how much rest it is that i apparently require...granted i didn't get much sleep friday (thanks to zack and an n64), but i'm pretty sure that 14 straight hours of sleep isn't a good thing...

and last sunday i had woken up late, took a two hour nap in the afternoon and then went to bed at 8:30. something's up, i'm just not sure what.

tomorrow i'm scheduled to have two meals with deirdre my direct supervisor: lunch with out latest hire, kerry and then dinner with abbey, so d can gain a better understanding of our newtown existance...could be a very interesting, very long monday. a nice start to what will inevitably be another long week...shoot, i just realized that i'm teaching cornerstone on wednesday and i haven't at all looked over the material or put any thought into the lesson what so ever...

of course my 14 hours of sleep last night aren't exactly making me too tired right now and it's past 12 and i need to be up at 6:30 the latest...goodness

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

expectations

I'm really looking forward to not being the Production Manager in 2008. It's an odd notion when you think about it, giving up a rather hefty title, but honestly, managing really isn't my forte. I operate better working on projects and creating and developing, rather than following routine and *ahem* procedure. It could be slower process though, finding my replacement, but hopefully by the end of the year I'll be spending most of my time running data analysis, maybe even design or copywriting. That could be interesting.

Tonight was the first real night of Cornerstone and it was fun. I'm really beginning to notice the age difference though between myself and a 7th grader. For the first time I'm finding it hard to connect with students and really have to strive to form those relationships. I don't know if it's always been like this, because whenI think about it, I already did have pre-established relationships with most of the kids in youth grou pbefore this year. The crop of 7th graders this year really is foreign to me for the most part.

Kairos is tomorrow night. Brian, Tricia, and Alyssa came over last night and we put together the three girl's d-groups. Should be interesting.

There's so much on my mind and I hate that right now I'm a bit preoccupied with one question: why the heck did he call? It's easier not to be friends, so let's just stay like this please.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

dreams

I've been dreaming a lot more recently. I'm not sure if it's that I'm sleeping more deeply, or some sort of side effect of the meds, but I've been going on my strange journeys in my subconscious.

Last night's in particular stuck with me all day, and it was one of those dreams that wasn't merely visual, there were smells and touches that came with it, as well emotional correlations as well. Overall it was some sort of mashed up rendering of Survivor meets Saw meets V for Vendetta. Sounds awful, it kind of was, and wasn't at the same time, if that makes any sense...

I think what struck the most was the descent of a person into something wicked and evil.

It's hard to imagine grace for a person who does dispicable things, yet often times most of us feel entitled to it. That it's OK, because God will forgive me. The conquences are so much greater when you know better.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

it's simple

i think it can all be boiled down to a very simple idea:

love god, love people.

yeah, i'm pretty sure that's why i'm here, and while it's simple in thoery, it's complicated in execution.

but i'm trying.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

morning sickness

abruptly stopping usage of cymbalta can result in unusual side effects. where the first two weeks of taking it caused continuous nausea, the first 48 hours without taking it led to violent vomiting (lovely picture, eh?)

though technically that could have also been ambien...which did nothing to help me sleep, instead i tossed and turned for an hour and half, had strange dreams of me yelling at kevin whilst my happily matched roommates watched tv. so while the cymbalt gets back into my system, i think i'll hold off on the ambien till next week.

tomorrow is the start of cornerstone, thursday is the start of kairos, and thursday morning there is a allies meeting of which i sadly cannot attend due to it being slightly short notice (for me, not everyone else...), but in the future i hope to go to one. i'm about to begin year three of being collage's production manager, year two of kairos, and year six of cornerstone; my love of youth ministry is still burning and i find myself wondering more often how i could possible spend most of my time doing that rather then overseeing the controlled chaos of DVD manufactoring, lofty shipping goals, and evolution of various processes.

or maybe just even spend more time creating. at least then i won't fall victim to manias.